18years & counting

In the name of God, most Merciful, most Beneficent. 

This blog post is especially dedicated to my parents, Ibu and Ayah. 
Ibu and Ayah sudah banyak berkorban untuk ku. I do not think that I could ever, ever repay and thank them. My love and my respect for them is who I am. They taught me so much about life, love, and most importantly, God. Who they are reflects their love for each other and for God. I pray each and every night that one day I too will be able to love someone so much and strengthen my love for God. 

Why do I chose to write about this today? Lately, dugaan-dugaan Allah has been even more apparent in my life. I am a college student, living with my parents. Yes, I LOVE it. The support, the love, the screaming, the reminders... these are the things that motivates me to be and do better. Just before my meeting today, my parents told me to make sure that I do not come home so late at night. While I do realize their concerns for me, as long as I am praying, I think that they should not worry about anything. I have pretty much found myself -- don't drink, pray, humble, respectful, selfless. I may be gullible, but I am not stupid. I am a strong person. Insha'allah I will continue to be the person I am describing and if I am not, I pray that I will be.


Dearest Ibu. Dearest Ayah.

I have walked. I have said my first word. I have rode my first two-wheeled bike. I have gone to school by myself. I have reached puberty. I have graduated from high school. I have finished my one year of college. Alhamdulilah.

Soon, I will be driving. I will be traveling. I will find a job. I will find a guy and fall in love. I will graduate from college. I will be living on my own. Insha'allah.

So don't be scared. For I know who I am. I know who I seek for help and refuge from. I know who I pray to.  Let me drive, let me travel, let me work, let me fall in love, let me graduate, let me live on my own. Because without you both and your support, I can not do all this. 

I will forever love you both. I will forever pray for Allah to have mercy on you both. And to bless you with all the happiness in this world and in the HereAfter.



  1. :) May Allah bless you, your parents and your family.

  2. I am too forever grateful to ur parents... I don't know how I would be without them. I thank Allah for meeting with Ayah that fateful night when I had to get my apartment key.

    Good luck falling in love!