one day, three autumns

bismillah.


seasons come, seasons go.
in your arms, 
she tightly awaits,
for every one day apart,
is like three autumns have passed by.

a place

in His name, most Gracious, most High


take me back to the place,
where the sounds of the city is replaced,
by the sound of the serenading ocean.
a place where the bare feet meets the world,
and the granulated sand sifts through the toes.
take me back to the place,
where all thoughts become a feeling,
of deep love, untouchable by anything else.
for no matter where that place is,
and how far a part the place makes of us,
he is always in the thoughts that brings about this feeling.


"Ain't no mountain high enough, ain't no valley low enough, ain't no river wide enough, to keep me from getting to you, babe." -Marvin Gaye

medical checkup

in His name and peace be upon you.

after many days of being surrounded by tall buildings and busy roads, i finally found myself surrounded by nothing except for the sand and sounds of the gushing ocean waves. i took a breather from all the worries and busyness that i've allowed myself to be overwhelmed with. alhamdulilah, because of a medical check up, the wheels of the car and the car mileage found itself a few hundred kilometer further and to spend time with the family, away from these things, is a blessings only my heart knows how to appreciate.

fi'amanillah.

so, i assure you that my feet aren't different sizes. haha. 

Bokeh! (thoughts of you #2)

In His name, most Gracious, most Merciful.

Thought that this blog could use some color... or maybe a picture.

Not a great quality once uploaded :(
The colors you put on her smiles,
Bright and wide,
Blooming at sunrise,
Glowing at sunset.


Our Return (thoughts of Him #3)

Bismillah wa salaamunalaikum.

If you don't care to read or don't read long posts (literally seems like a lecture to me now that I've finished typing)... i suggest to just go back to your Facebook... in no intentions do I want you to go cross-eyed from reading this or just hate me for wasting your time. Nope, no hard feelings, simply a friendly warning :)

Alhamdulilah, I can never run away from people who continuously reminds me of Him i came from and to Him i will return. However, today at 7:30am, was a time where life took a pause, needed time to sink what the ears had heard. Those words traveled from the ears down to the heart... not the tangible heart, but the heart that is below the mind as i say "He is the greatest", the heart that is of the same level as the mind when i recited "Praise be to my Great Lord", and the heart that is above the mind when i cry out "Oh our Lord, to You is the praise due".

It was not to who was the person I lost was to me but to who he is to Him. Yes, he was like an uncle to my family and I, and he was a dear friend to many and i mean many, masha'Allah. And today we continuously prayed that he will be among the best of His's believers. Because it is with Him that it matters.

Though we know that this life is temporary, we are still afraid to talk about death. But it is never death as the end of life as we know it that we shouldn't be afraid of, rather it is death as the beginning of life we should look forward to. I would be lying if I said that when this topic comes up I do not get goosebumps or humanly afraid... no, not at all. I do. There's so many things I need to work on as a person still... forget the dreams I want to achieve, that's all in His hand. But is just believing enough? What about the practices based on sunnah-tul-quran and sunnah-tul-nabi? What about the ultimate destination, Jannah al-Firdaus?

I can ramble on and on about religion or my weaknesses... but for all I know, I'm the only one reading this. Hehehe. No problem. "Tempat mengadu selain dpd kpd tuhan" as the malay would say it.

My point is to remind the readers of this blog and ESPECIALLY myself to do everything for the sake of Allah and to constantly thank Him. All the good are from Him and only the good are from Him. And, we do not take anything with us when we are six feet beneath the earth. So when we love for the sake of Allah, we learn to love eternally and unconditionally; when we eat for the sake of Allah, we learn to not to feel gluttonous ; when we earn money for the sake of Allah, we learn to be donate and help more... These are just some that are coming at the top of my head and ones that I definitely need to work on insha'Allah.

So, if you ever notice me forgetting these things, remind me... tears will form in my eyes, trust me... but not at being mad or upset or offended, rather it is because of failing to realize that while I can enjoy taking trips, or chatting, or texting, or eating, I need to constantly remember that doing everything for the sake of Allah so that insha'Allah khair it will make our meeting with Him lighter.

...I too just get too caught up in this worldly worries too much, too often.

It's been awhile since religious talk or religious read made me "come back to reality". But today was definitely a much needed big-fat wake up call for me.

Fi'amanillah.

"And he (Sulaiman) said: 'Truly, I love the good things, in order to see the Glory of my Lord.'" (As-Sad, 32)

thoughts of Him #2



ya Rabb, forgive me if I don't thank you enough.
for it is in my weakness to not at all times see the good in the bad,
the amazing in the good,
the beautiful in the ugly,
and the light in the beautiful.
thank you Allah. keep me guided in Your path.

fi'amanillah.

thoughts of Him #1

In the Name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful






Allah! 


There is no deity except He, the Ever Living, the One Who sustains and protects all that exists. 


Neither slumber, nor sleep overtake Him. 


To Him belongs whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on earth. 


Who is he that can intercede with Him except with His Permission? 


He knows what happens to them (His creatures) in this world, and what will happen to them in the Hereafter.


And they will never compass anything of His Knowledge except that which He wills. 


His throne extends over the heavens and the earth, and He feels no fatigue in guarding and preserving them. 


And He is the Most High, the Most Great.

thoughts of you #1

when words appear before the screen,
it's like the whispers of your voice into the ears.
travels down to the heart,
hope it stays there for awhile longer.

A Continous Search

Bismillah-ir-Rahman-ir-Rahim (In His name, Most Gracious, Most Beneficent)

In this never ending search,
I ask for you to take my hand,
To never let go,
To make a promise not to fool me,
For if you ever let go,
I could go on in this never ending search.

In this never ending search,
I ask of you to love me,
To teach me the meaning of Love,
To show me who i strive to be,
For if you one day leave the love,
I could go on in this never ending search.


September 2010- @Bangi, Malaysia

Him

in His name, most Gracious, most Merciful.

upon showered the weaknesses of a person,
let her seek her Sustainer.

upon showered the blessings of life unto a person,
let her give thanks to her Sustainer.

upon showered a trial day by day,
let her be given ease from her Sustainer.

upon showered the strengths of a person,
let her remember her Sustainer.

upon which whatever He has showered a person,
let her always know that her Sustainer is closer to her than her jugular vein.

alhamdulilah, alhamdulilah, alhamdulilah wa la ilaha il Allah.