another winter day has come,
and gone away,
in even Paris and Rome,
and i wanna go home,
let me go home.
and i'm surrounded by,
a million people i,
still feel all alone,
oh, let me go home,
oh, i miss you, you know.
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| O'Hare Airport, Chicago -July 20 |
nothing-ness
you wanted honesty,
when i gave you honesty,
you find fault in every bit of it,
so now tell me,
what am i suppose to do?
what do you want?
because my love seems to mean nothing to you.
when i gave you honesty,
you find fault in every bit of it,
so now tell me,
what am i suppose to do?
what do you want?
because my love seems to mean nothing to you.
silence
in His name, the All-Knowing, the All-Mighty.
a silent smile is a screaming heart.
for if Love could fix this,
let it be today,
for tomorrow it may persists.
Allah says in a Hadith Qudsi, "When a believer takes one step towards me, I take ten towards him. When a believer walks towards me, I come running."
a silent smile is a screaming heart.
for if Love could fix this,
let it be today,
for tomorrow it may persists.
Allah says in a Hadith Qudsi, "When a believer takes one step towards me, I take ten towards him. When a believer walks towards me, I come running."
a bird
"the heart is like a bird: love at its head and its two wings are hope and fear."
-Ibn Al-Qayyum, Madarii al-Salikin
amii wa walid
ibu.
ayah.
i know they are a call away.
but i just miss them.
i want to stay their little girl.
but i know i have to grow up and being far, this is the time to discover myself,
make mistakes and learn from them,
make decisions and be content with it,
because though the perception that the grass is greener on the other side,
the reality is, it is just as green if not greener on my side.
alhamdulilah.
ayah.
i know they are a call away.
but i just miss them.
i want to stay their little girl.
but i know i have to grow up and being far, this is the time to discover myself,
make mistakes and learn from them,
make decisions and be content with it,
because though the perception that the grass is greener on the other side,
the reality is, it is just as green if not greener on my side.
alhamdulilah.
temporary
in His name, most Beneficent, most Merciful and peace be upon you.
it took strength and courage to embark on this new journey thousands of miles apart of the ones i love.
and i forever thank everyone who has helped me through every steps of it.
undoubtedly, there were hidden tears, masked smiles, but the gratefulness never left this heart.
these are pictures of my temporary living space -- thank you GG for being an amazing housemate and put-up with everything of mine, from homesickness to sickness of school to loud laughs to snoring (if at all) :) :)
pictures of my current, and God willing, permanent living space until May 2012, will be uploaded soon. until then, time to start focusing again.
fi'amanillah.
it took strength and courage to embark on this new journey thousands of miles apart of the ones i love.
and i forever thank everyone who has helped me through every steps of it.
undoubtedly, there were hidden tears, masked smiles, but the gratefulness never left this heart.
these are pictures of my temporary living space -- thank you GG for being an amazing housemate and put-up with everything of mine, from homesickness to sickness of school to loud laughs to snoring (if at all) :) :)
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| I am a student |
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| Homesickness is an incurable disease. |
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| Living off my luggage was an unforgettable experience |
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| "Borrowed" the AFSC laundry basket |
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| It's about survival, not cravings |
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| A house that went from little to no rice to a huge sac! :) |
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| Again, I am a student. |
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| Ibu's recipe. Ayah's recipe. |
fi'amanillah.
sang hati
...hati yang ingin mencari keredhaan Allah dan restu ibu ayah...
...hanya ia mampu menunggu waktu nya dengan penuh kesabaran dan tabah...
...demikian bertaubatlah, bertawakkallah, dan beristiqamahlah wahai sang hati.
if.
in His name, most Forgiving, most Merciful.
if i told you that i miss you,
would that change anything,
though the upright curve of these lips may suggest otherwise,
dig deep inside and watch the words pour itself out.
so if i told you that i miss you,
would that change anything?
if i told you that i miss you,
would that change anything,
though the upright curve of these lips may suggest otherwise,
dig deep inside and watch the words pour itself out.
so if i told you that i miss you,
would that change anything?
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| @RedMango IUB- March, 2011 |
home
in His name, most Merciful, most Gracious, and peace be upon you.
when your family is a few thousands miles away,
the family you have is these strangers you create a bond with.
our house is now empty from the laughter, screaming, praying, and loud footsteps,
what felt like a home for even a few days,
is now a warm house deprived of the sisterhood bond.
my thoughts and prayers are with these strangers i met and now call friends.
may He shower us with another opportunity to meet again.
fi'amanillah.
when your family is a few thousands miles away,
the family you have is these strangers you create a bond with.
our house is now empty from the laughter, screaming, praying, and loud footsteps,
what felt like a home for even a few days,
is now a warm house deprived of the sisterhood bond.
my thoughts and prayers are with these strangers i met and now call friends.
may He shower us with another opportunity to meet again.
fi'amanillah.
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| IUB ISR, March 2011 |
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Whoever desires everlasting bliss, let him adhere firmly to the threshold of servitude.
(Ibn Taymiyyah)
dayOne
that smile was at every corner,
suddenly, disappeared just like that,
will it be drawn again,
for on this day one without it,
seems like the sun has hid itself,
cold covering her body.
for the day, the bird sings the morning blessings,
the sun shining brightly,
warming up her skin,
her heart sees that smile drawn permanently,
at every part of her body.
fi'amanillah.
suddenly, disappeared just like that,
will it be drawn again,
for on this day one without it,
seems like the sun has hid itself,
cold covering her body.
for the day, the bird sings the morning blessings,
the sun shining brightly,
warming up her skin,
her heart sees that smile drawn permanently,
at every part of her body.
fi'amanillah.
time
i just want another week...
better yet, just give me a life time and up to the seventh heaven...
but not to say that this experience has been a blessing above all...
certainly now,
i look forward to everything, from the victories to the challenges that may come.
until then...in His name, most Gracious, most Merciful.
better yet, just give me a life time and up to the seventh heaven...
but not to say that this experience has been a blessing above all...
certainly now,
i look forward to everything, from the victories to the challenges that may come.
until then...in His name, most Gracious, most Merciful.
night sky
some wants to lay on the green grass,
eyes up above,
admiring the night sky of shining stars and moon.
but last night,
it was winter cold,
warmth that refused to blanket over this flat land,
then, cold became a sensation,
warmth was unimportant,
as i find myself staring into those eyes,
i see the day light that turned into night sky,
full of shining untold stories,
of us.
fi'amanillah.
"How often have you sailed in my dreams. And now, you came in my awakening, which is my deeper dream." -The Prophet (Khalil Gibran)
eyes up above,
admiring the night sky of shining stars and moon.
but last night,
it was winter cold,
warmth that refused to blanket over this flat land,
then, cold became a sensation,
warmth was unimportant,
as i find myself staring into those eyes,
i see the day light that turned into night sky,
full of shining untold stories,
of us.
fi'amanillah.
"How often have you sailed in my dreams. And now, you came in my awakening, which is my deeper dream." -The Prophet (Khalil Gibran)
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