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in His name, most Merciful, most Beneficient.

it's been awhile since i've written, almost a week to be exact.
but that doesn't mean that words are not constantly written in my mind,
or even with certain words, being etched in my heart.
seven days that have passed, but the fact,
it remains, time needs to rewind,
and replay all the memories, from the start,
until the day he left me with only memories,
to keep me going for the next,
three hundred and fifty eights days.

natural

did i tell you how much i love you today?

should i write it in the rain puddle?

or do you prefer that i carve in on the trees down the streets?
or maybe you saw it in the shapes of the clouds...

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” (Rumi)

him

in His name, most Gracious, most Merciful.

  i call him loves. because he is a gift and a test from the One Above to love and cherish.

for what is love, in the absence of prayers and faith.
as the sun set, she prays that it was him, is him, and will always be him.

untitled

grant me haya' wa yakeen, ya Rabbi.

subaidah no.3

in His name, the All-Mighty, the Sustainer of All.

today, i passed you by,
noticing that you have come to entertain another beautiful one,
the aura of your love,
i wish was still awaiting my presence.
today, i passed you by,
realizing that it's time for me to leave,
once and for all.
may the beautiful one bring you happiness,
color the ways you arrange your life,
brightens your day from daytime to nighttime.
today, i passed you by,
leaving behind all the memories,
only in hope that it will not follow my shadow.
today, i pass you by,
wishing you peace and goodbye.

Madison, Wisconsin - Midwest, 2011

fi'amanillah.

subaidah no.2

the silence in the words i speak,
for if only you knew the meaning,
of a yearning heart,
will you then come and exchange warmth,
from your touch, your smiles, your laughs.
climbing up the mountain high of emotions,
so distant to reach the top,
conquering what must be,
in the silence of the words spoken,
only once at the peak will the wind blow,
the meaning to you,
of a yearning heart,
my heart.

simple is good

let's keep this one simply,
no abstract phrasing,
yet still pure from the heart,

my "h7ub" for you, i hope is blessed.
because it keeps growing before my only two eyes.
each and everyday i pray for us to be one,
to do all the cliche things lovers do,
to embark on new adventures that no one has,
for if He is contented,
i know our time will come.

oh, yes... i am a bit homesick right now.
so summer please come slowly and pass by quickly,
because i don't want to be alone.