one last time.

yesterday, we walked around that school.

a place where we grew into the person we are now.

the smell was nostalgic.

the walk was slow.

today, we talked about the walk we took around that school.

will we remember it as it is tomorrow?

the smell that brought back memories.

the walk that seemed to be a thousand miles.

"Go into the world and do well. But more importantly, go into the world and do good." -anonymous

halaqa summary I

have you ever sat down and really thought about what sorts of questions you would ask someone you've spend most of your life with before his last breathe?

i have decided to include summary points of the weekly halaqa that i attended given by ustaadh hassan lacheb.

the halaqa was a simple one, but it was very much needed. we tend to ask questions that are theological and deep about existence and the future. but yet we can't even understand the core from the bottom of our hearts. the related hadith is exactly that - refocusing our mind, heart, and soul back to the core and basic of it all.

in the name of Allah, most gracious, most merciful.

- mu'adh bin jabal (ra) is a long time companion of the Prophet (saw). he is among the youngest to convert into islam. upon spending some time alone with the Prophet, he realized that it was his chance to ask for a personal advise before the Prophet passes away. mu'adh had asked a simple question, what will guide him into Paradise and keep him away from Hell Fire. for someone that was a long time companion of the Prophet, one would think that he has already understood the basic.

- this takes us to the importance of security, reassurance, and salvation.

- those who asks Allah to guide them, He will make the path to Jannah easy. but this requires consistency, persistence, and done according to the Sunnah. too many time people only seek His help only when we need Him. but Allah listens to those that seek in Him with patience.

- we always need His help, even to accomplish the basics of Islam such as the daily prayers and fastings. this shows that we need His help even to remember Him.

- "alchemy of happiness is la ilaha illa allah" (prayers, fastings, charity, etc. are all acts to get us to say "la ilaha illa allah" from the bottom of our hearts)

the depth of the hadith that was covered is very detailed, but these are some of the points that really stuck to me and would like to share.

the hadith can be found here : http://fortyhadith.iiu.edu.my/hadith29.htm

may He forgive me for anything that i may not have re-emphasized correctly. may He forgive ustaadh hassan and bless him with the ability to continue to give the halaqa.

if you read my blog, do let me know what you think. any comments, suggestions, and questions are always welcome :)

fi'amanillah.

happy mother's day

This post is from me to my mother,

and perhaps from every child to their mothers'.

For it is written from the bottom of my heart,

With a feeling that is overwhelming on this day and everyday.

Mom,

The unseen tears that flows down your face,

It is felt in my heart,

Travels to both ends of my body.

Become tears from the eyes and,

Feeling of weakness in the legs,

How could I ever understand,

Of your unconditional love.

Let me assure you,

No tears need to flow,

Except for your love for Him.

Because at the end of it all,

I love you.

And I thank you.

And in my prayers will you always be in.

Let me cry your tears of pain,

From my words,

From my actions,

That may show otherwise,

Of my love,

And my thank.

We may part in this world,

But let us trust Him in meeting soon.

Keep holding on to me in your prayers,

For a mother's prayer for her child,

Is an answered prayer.

"And We have enjoined on man (to be good) to his parents: in travail upon travail did his mother bear him, and in years twain was his weaning: (hear the command) "Show gratitude to Me and to thy parents: to Me is (thy final) Goal," (31:14)

*sigh

here we go with the goodbyes...

the words that are left unsaid makes the heart cries...

ya rabb, please make this easy... you have soften my heart to love... but you didn't teach me to say goodbye.

Heart Of Life

Pain throws your heart to the ground

Love turns the whole thing around
No, it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good

-Heart of Life (John Mayer)

broken

it takes just one moment.

for your heart to break into million little pieces.

the dream that was only understood by the heart.

though your strength is your weakness,

the time has come,

for you to pick up the pieces,

and glue it back together.

security has given comfort,

stepping out of the wall is impossible.

culture tears people apart,

for it is the differences what they doubted.

overwhelmed by adjusting,

unwillingly rejecting,

for trying is seen as difficult,

but hold on tight.

this ride is going to be bumpy.

"And among His Signs is the creation of the heavens and the earth, and the variations in your languages and your colors. Verily in that are Signs for those who know." (30:22)

b-busy

"A camel is stronger than a man, an elephant is larger, a lion has greater valour, cattle can eat more than man, birds are more virile. Man was made for the purpose of learning." -Imam al- Ghazzali

Simple as that :)