for everything that it's worth,
today i just want the world to know,
these words of mine,
from the bottom of my heart,
to the top,
and everything in between my heart.
i thank you for your support,
and i love you.
"to love is to reach God" (Rumi)
Believer
in Your name, most Merciful, most Beneficent.
for if i ever miss You,
please wipe the tears of my eyes.
for if i ever neglect You,
please remind me with Your Almighty power in the most merciful way.
for what Believer do not miss You,
for what Believer does not need constant reminders.
her warmth
in His name, most Loving, most Gracious.
today, i miss her warmth.
in the bitter cold weather,
in between the purest of white snow,
nothing to me is purer than her love.
today, i miss her warmth.
the cold wind that punches me in the chest,
the wet snow that freezes the ten little toes,
nothing to me is warmer than her soup in this weather.
today, i just miss her.
oh Allah, please take care of her for me.
panjangkan la umur ku untuk bersalam bersame ibuku.
today, i miss her warmth.
in the bitter cold weather,
in between the purest of white snow,
nothing to me is purer than her love.
today, i miss her warmth.
the cold wind that punches me in the chest,
the wet snow that freezes the ten little toes,
nothing to me is warmer than her soup in this weather.
today, i just miss her.
oh Allah, please take care of her for me.
panjangkan la umur ku untuk bersalam bersame ibuku.
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| only a lady from heaven is the lady who always puts her husband and children first -- and this lady to me is my ibu. (photo by walid) |
taubat
in His name, the All-Knowing, most Forgiving.
i really do...
beside every woman, there's a man to guide her back to the right path...
i really do...
beside every woman, there's a man to guide her back to the right path...
father-daughter
so many smiles and warm welcome back.
questions after another.
thank you.
but i still feel so cold,
perhaps from the weather outside,
but i still feel so alone,
perhaps because i wish he was here.
i miss my father-daugther weekly lunch @ Herman B. Wells cafe...
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| (purposely blurry) |
okay sudah2. sambung bace...
ma'salaam.
homesick round 100thousand
i hope everything at home is okay...
surrounded by smiles, laughters, and loudness.
in Him do i place all my trust,
and His aid alone do i seek,
to shower His protection,
blessings, and mercies to everyone at home.
i hope everything at home is okay...
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| i miss this little spoiled-brat |
a misty morning
in His name, most Forgiving, most Loving
and peace be upon you.
this morning the sun risen,
for it was to be a normal day.
routinely rushing to catch the hours of the day.
but allow me to beg to differ,
for this morning wasn't like any others.
emotionally fragile.
for them,
let me put my hands out,
catch every drop of those tears,
and blow a smile,
maybe two,
whisper words of love,
it's alright, we'll be okay.
for him,
i fall on my knees,
the words to tie the knots stronger,
felt to want to loosen itself,
even with this weakness,
i will fall on my knees,
raise my hands and seek guidance.
for this morning,
the sun risen,
to light the path of honesty and sincerity.
and peace be upon you.
this morning the sun risen,
for it was to be a normal day.
routinely rushing to catch the hours of the day.
but allow me to beg to differ,
for this morning wasn't like any others.
emotionally fragile.
for them,
let me put my hands out,
catch every drop of those tears,
and blow a smile,
maybe two,
whisper words of love,
it's alright, we'll be okay.
for him,
i fall on my knees,
the words to tie the knots stronger,
felt to want to loosen itself,
even with this weakness,
i will fall on my knees,
raise my hands and seek guidance.
for this morning,
the sun risen,
to light the path of honesty and sincerity.
And it begins.
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيماللهم صل على محمد وآل محمداَللَّهُمَّ اَخْرِجْنِي مِنْ ظُلُمَاتِ الْوَهْمِ، وَاَكْرِمْنِي بِنُوْرِ الْفَهْمِ. اَللَّهُمَّ افْتَحْ عَلَيْنَا اَبْوَابَ رَحْمَتِكَ،وَانْشُرْ عَلَيْنَا خَزَآئِنَ عُلُوْمِكَ بِرَحْمَتِكَ يَااَرْحَمَ الرَّاحِمِيْنَ
Bismillâhir Rahmânir Rahîm,
Dengan asma AllahYang Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang
Ya Allah, sampaikan shalawat kepada Rasulullah dan keluarganya
Ya Allah, sampaikan shalawat kepada Rasulullah dan keluarganya
Ya Allah, keluarkan aku dari gelapnya kebingungan dan muliakan aku dengan cahaya pemahaman. Ya Allah, bukakan kepada kami pintu-pintu rahmat-Mu, dan curahkan kepada kami khazanah-khazanah ilmu-Mu dengan rahmat-Mu wahai Yang Maha Pengasih dari segala yang mengasihi.
Amin
Alone
In His name, the most Gracious, the most Merciful
and peace be upon you.
Monday night at around 11:30pm, I finally arrived, alhamdulilah. It was cold and full of tests from Him.
No matter how much I was tested, truly He does not test us on what we cannot bare. For if he did, I would not be writing this entry and giving praise and thanks to Him.
Enough said, here are the pictures I managed to snap while I was facing the reality of traveling alone for the first time at the age of 20.
Yesterday, I managed to get a lot of my major errands done -- alhamdulilah. On top of it all, with the help of a router, skyping with the people i love the most was made possible. It was the first time I did not feel as lonely since I've arrived. I have great friends here and may Allah bless every single one of them for helping me and welcoming me back, but there's truly nothing like the warmth of seeing the faces of the people you love.
Until then, fi'amanillah bikum.
and peace be upon you.
Monday night at around 11:30pm, I finally arrived, alhamdulilah. It was cold and full of tests from Him.
No matter how much I was tested, truly He does not test us on what we cannot bare. For if he did, I would not be writing this entry and giving praise and thanks to Him.
Enough said, here are the pictures I managed to snap while I was facing the reality of traveling alone for the first time at the age of 20.
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| @KLIA -- Getting ready to depart and the tears has definitely started. (Photo by: Mussy) |
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| @LAX -- stuck for 7 hours thanks to delay in China. The first test I had to face on my own, alone. |
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| Second test... picture says it all. |
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| Just two more years, insha'Allah khair |
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| Thank you CZ for providing me with accommodation for your mistakes -- though I would have much rather been on the plane to IN. |
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| Test #3... Delay for four hours @MSP |
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| Test #4 -- my whole luggage fell apart... Alhamdulilah, it arrived w/ nothing missing. |
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| How IU greeted me the next morning. Shivering and icy cold with a pinch of jetlag. Bless my housemate's heart for letting me borrow her jacket and boots. |
Until then, fi'amanillah bikum.
delayed
Peace be upon you.
I wrote this while waiting for my next flight out from LAX...
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On my way back to embark on a new journey -- this time as a sponsored, independently living student.
Flight got delayed and now I am stuck in LAX international airport... Thank you China Southern Airline for your accommodation and willingness to book me next flight out for free -- though your inflight service wasn't the greatest (as compared to MAS or Singaporean).
Got three more hours before i check in and hope that i arrive without anymore delays and rescheduling. He will keep on testing me, but alhamdulilah, nothing thus far is that I cannot bare with a little of hope, faith, and strength.
Basically i am writing this to send my love to Rumah KD... I miss you all like craziness and whenever you guys come to my mind, my heart sends a little message of tears full of "kerinduan" and love. But i'll be home soon insha'Allah :)
I wrote this while waiting for my next flight out from LAX...
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On my way back to embark on a new journey -- this time as a sponsored, independently living student.
Flight got delayed and now I am stuck in LAX international airport... Thank you China Southern Airline for your accommodation and willingness to book me next flight out for free -- though your inflight service wasn't the greatest (as compared to MAS or Singaporean).
Got three more hours before i check in and hope that i arrive without anymore delays and rescheduling. He will keep on testing me, but alhamdulilah, nothing thus far is that I cannot bare with a little of hope, faith, and strength.
Basically i am writing this to send my love to Rumah KD... I miss you all like craziness and whenever you guys come to my mind, my heart sends a little message of tears full of "kerinduan" and love. But i'll be home soon insha'Allah :)
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| if only i could just smoosh them into my luggages. |
Oh Allah, please take care of them for me. Panjangkan la umur2 dan murahkan rezeki keluarga sayangiku. Test them not on what they cannot bare, and bless them with Your mercies, forgiveness, and love.
two thousand and eleven
In His name, most Gracious, most Merciful and peace be upon you.
upon saying goodbye to 2010,
2011 is greeted with a hello,
a wishful and hopefully greeting.
but it got me thinking,
how long will these greets last,
before it turns hopeless and regretful.
i pray to Him,
protect me from such evil to the heart, mind, and soul.
i pray to Him,
grant happiness to ibu, ayah, adik2, extended families, him, and to all the people in my life that has guided and taught me the definition of love and life -- the good and the sad that comes with it.
i pray to Him,
strengthen and bless our relationship.
and i pray to Him,
send only goodness to his and his family's way.
upon saying goodbye to 2010,
2011 is greeted with a hello,
a wishful and hopefully greeting.
fi'amanillah
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| Oh yes, this New Year's I am in my motherland :) Alhamdulilah -- there's truly nothing sweeter than home sweet home. |
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